Philippians 3:12-14 (The Message Bible)

I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Day 46

Not a team. I guess me and my hubby have decided to finish out our P90X journey alone...without each other. He's found that getting up at 4:45 am and doing the work out works best for him....and I would much rather do it around 1:00 in the afternoon when I'm awake and my energy is up. It's kind of a bummer because I feel like we aren't encouraging each other nearly as much anymore...but hey, if this is what we have to do to get it done, then I guess this is the best way. We will still do the workouts together on Saturday's probably.
Anyhow, today was very tough for me. (I feel like I say that all the time) but really, I was so drained today, i actually got in bed at 3 pm and slept till 5:30 and would have loved to just stay in bed...but our stomachs were growling and I knew it was up to me to get some dinner on the table. (would So love to have a live-in chef!)
Anyway, after dinner and clean up, I put on my work out clothes and against everything in me, I did Back & Biceps and ARX. It was a second to second struggle to keep my energy up and fight for willpower to keep going. I found myself thinking:
"Who gives a rip about this dumb program."
"I am an almost-30-yr-old married woman. Why do I have to look SO good?"
"What's SO horrible about the way I look right now? Isn't this good enough?"
and so on and so on....
It was you guys that kept me going. I kept thinking...what will Kandy and Candy and Kate say? ha ha ha...but really, I couldn't let you girls down, so I pressed on. Now that its over, I'm glad I did.
Here's the menu for today:
Breakfast: 1 cup Kashi Go Lean cereal, 1 banana, skim milk.
Snack: 15 pistachios, 25 calorie "diet" hot chocolate
Lunch: Grilled chicken snack wrap and 10 tater tots from Sonic. (this was not intentional. I had to run to Wal-Mart after the kids gymnastics class this morning and I ended up being there too long. AFterwards I took the kids to Sonic for some lunch and I realized I was STARVING (used loosely). After I had eaten about 10 of Grant's tater tots and realized I was doing something very, very horrible, I decided to just order myself the healthiest thing I could find on the menu. I threw away at least half of the tortilla so I don't think it was too bad --though I'm sure the tater tots were VERY bad.
Snack: Bowl of mixed veggies (left overs)
Dinner: 3 small slices of Kashi Mediterrainien Pizza, turkey breast nachos (homemade corn tortilla chips, turkey breast, FF cheese, avacado, banana peppers, bell pepper, red onion, lettuce, salsa, sourcream). I also drank a small CokeZero with dinner to try to give me some energy before I did my work out.

Right now it is 10:49 and I am REALLY craving something sweet....but I'm not gonna do it. I am just gonna put down my laptop and go to sleep. If I hurry, I can be snoozing by 11. ha ha


Miss Got Wings said...

those thoughts run through my head more often than not. and they sure are a pain aren't they? nasty thoughts! what's important is that you are doing this for you and no one else. Doing it to be healthy and strong. Keep up the great work! I'm gonna miss your posts for the next week.

Anonymous said...

You'll be fine Jen, Its really best to work out when it feels best for you. I totally can see where your husband is coming from, I prefer my mornings to late afternoon evening BY FAR...

Don't we all wish that we had "The Take Home Chef" come to our house to cook and for us...ha ha

Don't give up, time keeps ticking whether or not we work out. So you may as well accomplish somthing. Plus remember although it may not be this intense it should be a lifetime/lifestyle change.

And Yes, if it helps, we are watching you! That is a good thing.