I need a friggin tanning bed ASAP!
okay, this ashy white skin has GOT to go. Being 10 pounds heavier than I want is bad enough, but being ghostly white with it is just unacceptable!
I usually use self-tanner in the winter time to take the "edge" off and give myself a little bit of "glow" but for some reason, this year, that's just not cuttin' it. I actually think the bottle of Dove Energy Glow I am using right now is defective. I am as white on my legs and face and arms (the places I put it) as I am on my tummy and back....so I think they forgot to put the tanning stuff in the lotion or something. Or maybe I've grown immune to it?? ha ha
Anyway, nevertheless, I have got to make a date with a tanning bed. Besides the jolt of "summer-feeling" it gives me, I'm ready to feel (and look) sexy in my undies again. Sweatshirts and jeans are all good (and believe me, I live in them) but its nice to look good in my sports bra and gym shorts too!
Now if I can just shut up the little voice in the back of my head that is telling me "you shouldn't be tanning--you have a possible skin cancer on your forehead". I know I should go to a dermatologist and get it checked out--it's a little crusty spot that won't go away right on my hairline on my forehead. But quite frankly, I'm so afraid he's gonna tell me I have to stay out of the sun (and tanning beds) and as ignorant as it is, I know I probably won't do it. I am just gross when I'm white. period. Just like I won't give up my highlights. I need them. If I am going to have any level of self confidence (in my physical appearance) I have to get in my work outs, have a decent tan and get my hair done. You girls can have your purses and shoes--you can have your pedicures and manicures and expensive make up. I just need those 3 things (and maybe a few cute outfits for when I actually get to leave the house).