Philippians 3:12-14 (The Message Bible)

I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

Friday, February 27, 2009

New Skin

That's it!!! I want some new skin. I'm done with these stretch marks. I don't need them anymore. I'm not "that girl" anymore so why do I have to carry the proof of my fat childhood around with me forever? AUGH!
I was walking around in my sports bra and shorts getting ready to do Ab Ripper and I thought about something Demi said to me about maybe if I took some pictures, I could see the differences I've made in my body in the last 45 days. I whip out the camera and snap a few. (I don't know WHY I didn't wait until AFTER doing ab ripper to do this---as I would have been a lot more "tight" and "ripped" looking probably--but anyway.) So they look decent on my camera's 1 inch viewing screen so I uploaded them to my computer where I get to look at them on my 19 inch monitor and ohhhh gross!!! The abs are not horrible...but the stretch marks are totally disgusting. Yes, I got stretch marks on my tummy from being pregnant but the ones that gross me out the most are the ones on my sides and hips and legs from being heavy all those years. For those of you who don't know...I was never OBESE or anything...but I was always a good 20 pounds (or more at times) heavier than I needed to be. Plus, I grew up fast. It was like I went from an average 10 year old little girl one day to a 13 year old double-D wearing, 110 pound teenager overnight. Anyway, I deleted all of the pictures I took except for this one because the stretch marks were really glowing irridescent streaks. Gag me. Somehow, you can't see as many on this pic so I decided to post it because I am quite proud of the improvment in my ab area. I can see a lot more "cut-ness" than before. Anyway...I just REALLY wish there was something I could do to get rid of the SM's. It doesn't seem fair to put so much work into a toned, fit body and then have to look at sagging, streaky skin. The more weight I lose, the more deflated my chest and stomach look. And not in a good way. I am beginning to resemble a raisin. {giggle-giggle}
I tried turning this picture black and white to see if that helped...I don't think it did. you go:

Here is a pic of my abs before P90X:


Trav and Jess P90X said...

You look great! It is great that you want to do even better and I don't want to discourage anyone from pushing themselves towards success, but at the same time you have to love where you are "today" and only try to do better "tomorrow". Life is too short.

Demi Eliese said...

There is an ABSOLUTE difference! GREAT JOB!

Oh and I sigh with you on the stretch mark dept. I've got em too! Sunless tanner is a great cover up though!

Miss Got Wings said...

have you tried cocoa butter? I used the one made by Palmer's that came in a stick. That really helped me get rid of mine that creeped up when I was heavier. Or like Demi says . . .a tan certainly helps too.

KC said...

Jen, I'm in the same boat with ya. I have stretch marks on my thighs, hips, stomach, boobs...there everywhere! ha-ha The only ones from pregnancy are on my lower stomach, everything else is from growing so quickly and being heavier for most of my life. It's just genetic though. My cousin, who has never been overweight, has them also. We were just cursed with skin that gets stretch marks. I have a friend who has had multiple babies, and doesn't even have 1 stretch mark...the women in her family just don't get's so unfair.
But there is nothing we can do to get rid of them, believe me I've tried just about every cream/lotion out there but nothing works....however, if you find a magic cure, please share!!!! :)