Philippians 3:12-14 (The Message Bible)

I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Is it EVER enough????

Okay, I'm frustrated. I really don't have a lot of time but I need to "vent" this out. So...I finally got a new battery for my stupid scale. Therefore, you can imagine why I'm mad.

Anyway, what I really want to scream is "Is it EVER enough?"

First, I tried to start working out more. I started P90X again and pretty much began DAILY (except for Sunday's) workouts again. Hard, intense, serious workouts.

Secondly, I started making up my weekly meal plans and sticking to them TO A TEE. Monday-Friday--no dessert, whole grains, raw veggies, fresh fruits, lean meats, only water to drink.

The last and final thing I have YET to do is give up my "weekend eating habits" which involve a lot of unhealthy eating out (at least 2-3 times). If I'm at home, I still eat good. If we go out though, I'm likely to indulge in a few chips and queso, a fried something and/ or possibly a sugary drink. BUT JIMMINY CHRISTMAS--a girl's gotta LIVE A LITTLE!!!

Apparently my body is not going to let go of another stinking pound unless I commit to this 100% of the time though. Which really sucks. Because I'm not sure I want it THAT bad. I want it. Oh yes..I want it SO SO MUCH. I want it enough to decline going to On the Border and using my "free chips and queso" coupon on Sunday after church? No, I don't think I do.

And do I want it so bad that I would choose a boring dressing-less salad at Fish Bones rather than having the heavenly Bang-Bang shrimp that I have a FREE COUPON FOR? Nope...I doubt it.

Ugh. This is really making me mad.
I mean..are you telling me that these girls who have insanely lean bodies (for instance...almost all the other fitness instructors at the gym) NEVER EVER have a slice of pizza? Or a brownie fudge sundae? Or a margarita? Or an order of french fries?
Is it even possible to LIVE a happy life without any of that stuff?
I'm doubtful....


Gina said...

I hear ya girlfriend! Don't have a good answer. I just know that I'd rather be fit and healthy (most days). That's why I'm also re-starting P90X. There's got to be a better way to maintain though (hence me doing it over). I think the treats that we give ourselves are maybe too often? We're an instant gratification society now-a-day's; can get anything at anytime and if we resist a few times it may seem like a lot of work as it's so easily available? It sucks...I totally feel your pain. And those other fitness trainers...either don't indulge or have a better natural metabolism? Who knows!

Kate said...

I hear your frustration!!! And I wish I knew the answer. I do know that it takes me a lot more effort to lose weight now that my metabolism is changing. It's a hard pill to swallow, but it's the truth. Our bodies change as we add on another year and sometimes we really have to switch things up. I think those trainers do indulge once and a while but because of their lean muscle mass . . . and I'm talking ripped people like Jackie Warner and Jillian Michaels . . . they are jsut fat burning machines even in their sleep. Have you tried switching up your workouts at all? Sometimes we can even plateau with those. Maybe try power yoga or pilates? Our bodies need change. Once they adapt to a routine, they stop making progress and they maintain.

Annie, The Amazing Shrinking Girl said...

Oh, girl!! I'm with you on this one. I took a five-month "break" from eating right and doing any type of exercise and BOOM... gained 20 lbs. (literally).

Anyway, I've been back to eating right, counting calories, and exercising (weights and cardio) for the last three weeks and my weight has moved at all! SERIOUSLY? I mean I heard that when you first lose weight, it's always the easiest but how hard is it go from obese to just overweight?

I think I have to watch what I do on the weekends as well but like you said... that's no way to live. I'm gonna give it for the next several weekends and see how things go. Maybe our bodies just need a short "reset" to get things moving again.

Here's to hoping!

Rene' said...

I hear ya ! (ha ha I'm laughing now bc I just glanced to the left and saw that is how 'Gina' started her comment too-ha ha) anyway, I do! I used to weigh myself every single day! I quit doing that this spring and just havent picked it up again and I guess that is part of the reason I'm a little more lacksidaisicle than I used to be regarding this thing we call weightloss and maintenance. But jeez! Like u said, I WANNA LIVE too! Yes, the scale is saying 150 (again) and my Big Stars (which don't seem to be as stretchy as the other jeans I have) are a little snug on my thighs so I know there's been some weight gain, and my stomach isn't concave or even flat when I lay in bed at night anymore (eek!) , BUT I don't want to be THAT person who works out ALL the time, and NEVER eats whats out there. I'll tell u, when I start not eating 'fun' stuff, I have no desire to eat at all, it doesn't even seem worth it, I sit in a restaurant and think why am I here? I'm not even enjoying what I'm 'barely' eating. I don' t want to be that yo-yo though anymore, and I want my hubby to find me attractive (big ol bottoms are not), but I want to enjoy life. I'm with ya girl, I don't have the answer right now, bc right now I'm swimming up stream too, but know that I understand and can relate. I hope we both figure this out permanently soon :) But until then I refuse to beat myself up because my body isn't as perfect as Jennifer Gray (older than me) and Audrina Partridge (younger than me) on Dancing with the Stars! lol

Anonymous said...

Jen! I totally agree. It blows not being able to eat whatever we want.

I have come to find out that my problem is that I'm so all or nothing. I'm either eating terribly 24/7 or indulging myself whenever I feel like it (sometimes without even thinking about it.)

My plan is to be really, really good and get to where I want to be, then do my best to maintain some kind of balance. I know for me that's something to think about.

I love you though , girl. You can do it, don't give up. :) Praying for you!

-Kirsty (totally can't remember my blog log in, haha)

The Cade Family said...

Keep your chin up - where you are is not where you're going to be. Try having 1-2 planned cheat meals weekly. Keep portion sizes small, & choose places like On The Border where you know you wanna indulge....or friends dinner party, or Friday night ice cream... If you limit your cheat meals like this, the cravings will subside considerably, then go away entirely.

Kate said...

I am right there with you. I too am finding it hard to give up my "weekend eating habits" and this was just my first weekend. It is really making me consider what is more important to me - those abs that I want so bad or that pizza I want even worse. I truely think that it all comes down to portion control and making wise choices when eatings. I think that I just need to make a serious and conscious decision on what is more important - may be you need too also. Best of luck to you!

Heather said...

I think you can live a life not eating that stuff, but would it be happy...I don't know. Last year I lost 30 pounds following Weight Watchers and I stuck to the plan like a T. I never ever went over points. And if I thought I would go over by eating out, I would go to the gym for over and hour and burn off a ton of calories so eating out didn't affect me. So when I stopped tracking points I did bad because I never allowed myself to have those indulgences. There were times that I made myself something completely different from my family just to stick to my points which wasn't good to do either. Or I wouldn't have fun at parties because they had snacks and such there that I wouldn't eat because I didn't want to go over calories. Life is short, you need to be able to enjoy it. The weight will come will just take a little longer but as long as you're happy that's all that matters. :)