Have you heard that song out by Adam Lambert where he says "What do you want from me?"
Well...that's what I was singing to my body today (literally) as I stood in front of the mirror waiting for the shower water to get warm. I work out as much as my body will allow me to and eat pretty healthfully--yet I see all kinds of grooooooossssss things in the mirror. It makes me very frustrated.
I know...(Rene, Lori, KC, Kate...i know what ur thinking! :o)
I should be grateful for a healthy, fit body and I have a lot to be thankful for--AND I AM...but I just wonder, what does my body want me to do before it will LET GO of all the excess blubber around my thighs, core and arms?
I watch the girls in the Insanity videos. Not one of them has the jiggly skin in those areas that I do. Maybe none of them have had kids? Maybe none of them were ever overweight? I don't know.
Not only the in the Insanity videos..but even at the gym when some of the girls (who I know are moms) take off their shirts and work out in their sports bras...no jiggle-jiggle.
I know in proper perspective, I am just being a whiny baby about non-important details...but I work so hard and it would really be nice to SOMEDAY be able to not disgust myself when I am naked in front of the mirror.
Reminds me of one of my most horrible childhood memories....I was about 11 and I went away to summer camp for a week. I was chubby and very uncoordinated and self-concious. I had no self-esteem whatsoever. When a group of kids found out that my last name was Zigler...they started calling me Jennifer Jiggler for the rest of the week. (that was around the time that Bill Cosby was promoting Jello Jigglers on TV). Anyway, maybe those things really do scar us for life because I have to admit, when I watch myself do intense workouts like Insanity in front of the mirror...I still call myself Jennifer Jiggler.
How sad, huh?
It's ridiculous. I am not that girl anymore on the inside.
Aaaaaaanyway...I really don't know why I just posted all that on here. I guess it's whats going through my mind at the moment.
In other "news" I did my Day 3 of Insanity yesterday Cardio Power & Resistance and Day 4 today Cardio Recovery in addition to teaching step class at the gym, doing a 45 minute Interval class and a quick run on the treadmill.
One thing is for sure...at the end of this 60 days of Insanity, I KNOW that I will be better than I am now! I can't wait to get finished and see (and show you) the results!
Thank you all for always encouraging me! I feel really guilty sometimes admitting that I have these sorts of thoughts about myself because I am supposed to be the coach...the one telling you not to be so self-critical and to be happy with how far you've come, etc....and then look at me...not doing it myself. ugh!
:o) I'm so crazy sometimes!