Insanity-Day 36

Like I posted on FB earlier, I swear the Insanity Fit Test was trying to KILL me today. Seriously...I was HUR-TING! At least, thank GOODNESS, my numbers improved quite a bit. Not sure if that is because I pushed harder than EVER today...or if I've really gotten that much stronger...!?!
Speaking of the fit test, do those of you who've done it know...are you supposed to count every other switch kick as "1" or each kick individually? I did 60 (if you're counting doubles) or 120 if you're counting singles. Tanya on the video did 110...so SURELY that means she was counting singles, right???
Anyway, after I finished the fit test, I was supposed to do Max Interval Circuit. HA HA HA
I put it in and skipped over the warm up since I was obviously already VERY warmed up (soaked and out of breath!)
I did about 30 minutes of the 59 minute workout before I said ENOUGH! and fast-forwarded to the cool down. I was as close as I've ever been to barfing during a workout...complete with burps and gags and dizzy spells. It was awful. I don't know what was going on either because I had a good, healthy breakfast a few hours earlier and drank my normal cup of coffee and was really feeling very good and ready-to-go before I started. ???
By the time I was about halfway done with the 2nd workout I was really having a battle of the mind. I was HATING it and feeling miserable and I just kept hearing "I can't do it" over and over in my head. Uck. I hate that. It's one thing when my body gives out...but I REFUSE to be controlled or limited by my HEAD. I guess I'm a bit of a weirdo about this sort of thing. I like to "discipline" myself for weakness.
For instance, this weekend I was talking to my niece about getting a tattoo. She said if it weren't for the pain, she would TOTALLY get one but thinking about the pain freaks her out.
I am completely the opposite. I would rather go through the pain (just to see if I can handle it) and NOT have the tattoo! Its not that I enjoy pain..no way jose...it's just that I like proving to myself that I am not a wuss.
Something about doing something that my mind says I can't...but then I do...and it just feels SO good.
I'm not really thrilled about how I did in my last 5K...but one thing I loved is that at the very end when I was literally about ready to just stop and walk because I was SO uncomfortable...hurting, sweating, couldn't breath, etc...I suddenly reached down inside and pulled out this reservoir of energy and I SPRINTED across the finish line. I did NOT know I had that in me. Even as I was doing it, I was thinking "WOW! How am I doing this?"
After wards, I would have jumped at the chance to do that 5K over again right then because I had just proven to myself that even when my mind was saying "it's over..you can't do any more..." my body SHOWED me that I could! I felt GREAT and rejuvenated again!

Anyway, that was kind of a bunny trail...but what I was trying to say is that I can see that this last month of Insanity MAX training is going to be Challenging. Exhausting. Nauseating. Miserable. Intense. Insane. ....and I say...BRING IT ON! :-)

I am very anxious to get back to P90X when this next 30 day is over. My weights (and my biceps) are getting dusty! :o)